I am so, so grateful and excited to say that beginning on November 7th, I will begin taking actual classes on how to be a birth doula!
The world of families and babies and birth is really new to me, and I don’t know much about it – of course, I’ve been doing research since I wrote this. As an only child in a relatively small family and a small, young, queer community, none of my family members nor any of my close acquaintances have been pregnant or had a baby since my cousin was born in 2000 (we just celebrated her 18th birthday)! So you could say that right now, I don’t have a lot of experience. Hell, I don’t even know if this is a world which I really would love, and would fit into, or if I’m just having an imaginative heart-feeling that I would.
Still, though, I feel like it’s a journey that’s worth setting out on. I’m so grateful to have been exposed to childbirth education and reproductive health and people who help families go through this whole new world. Before I had started thinking about all of this, I felt like I was missing something that I’d once had – a softness, and a kindness, and a lens through which to see beauty in the world. Everything that’s happening right now in politics and the environment and people giving in to their hate is heartbreaking to see, and I’m constantly trying to keep a tender heart and find the seeds of sunshine in places that are otherwise dark. But it’s hard sometimes, and through this work I found some of that. I see all sorts of beautiful things, new potential in these new lives, women being empowered, partners who are dedicated to creating loving homes, and most of all just people celebrating what it is to breathe and live and be together.
So when I start my workshop in November, I think I’m going to be nervous. I think I’m going to feel a little bit like I don’t belong there. But I’ve decided that I’m willing to experience that, and not let it chase me away. There have been times in my life where I’ve let the intimidation of something new prevent me from taking action to achieve my goals, but I don’t want that to happen this time, both because I need to do this and because I think that the world needs more chances for love and human connection. If I can do anything to make that happen, I want to.